Don’t stop
believing, hold on to that feeling.
Journey (The
Rock Band)
Many
times in my life I’ve succumbed to a dearth of pleasure and joy and let fear
have the upper hand in determining my moods and my days. The illness and death of a parent,
sibling, or close friend; miscarriage, the break down and destruction of a
marriage, or worry over finances are very stressful and painful, and overwhelm
the joy of life. At one time or
another, all of these have had negative and depressing effects in my life. I have
always tried to learn from difficulty and pain and then move forward. But, moving forward doesn’t seem to
happen quickly, and I have often thought that regaining my equilibrium might
never occur.
However, believing opportunity is all
around and that something positive will come from pain has always been a
powerful reason for me to look for the bright side. It’s a start to escaping the negative cycle of loss and an
opportunity to move in the opposite direction ... the abundance of hope,
belief, joy, love, and opportunity.
The
catharsis happens for me by writing rather than verbalizing my pains and
fears. And it gives me opportunity
to look at what I’ve written from different view points since I can review my
musings another day, or even months later, with a different set of emotions and
circumstances coloring my views. Often I’m startled by what I’ve written and
find that I’ve changed my perspective completely. That makes me feel I’ve
gained insight from the experience, therefore, something good has come from
sorrow.
Determination
and a deep belief that change is a good thing have helped carry me through my
life to this point. I can usually find the silver lining in a problem; it may
be tarnished, but still it’s a spark of something brighter. Once I find that small speck of
possibility, it becomes a carrot dangling in front of me that I can choose to
reach for (or not) and find solutions to shine light on the darkness. It’s not always easy to move to the
positive side, but I have found time and again that something magic will happen in my life if I keep
believing.
Susan
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